I'm busy keeping you in mind, because I can't leave you behind
And I know that I'm out of chances but give me one and you'll find that I'm
Not the piece of shit I used to be, I can be better
Didn't know what I had 'til it was gone, like Cinderella
But I'm not going and trying to blame you for my inadequacies
I'm just trying to explain all my feelings accurately
'Cause you're the only one who ever really mattered to me
I know that that's fucking corny but you know what I mean
Now I'm conflicted, because all I want is for you to be happy
But I don't know if I can handle the fact that you won't have me
I know I'm fucking sad and this shit probably won't matter
I doubt you'll even listen to this, 'cause you never were a fan of
My stupid fucking songs about some stupid fucking shit
I'm writing stupid fucking bars like I'm a stupid fucking kid
I guess that's the only reason I can say this
'Cause I keep it in my mind that you're unlikely to play this
And if you did you'd probably think that I sound fucking insane
That at best my expressions are all just freakishly lame
I couldn't say what I felt before, that was the problem
So now I'm saying it late, turns out my voice was at the bottom
Now I'm here and writing things I said I'd never write about
But I can't help it, 'cause at the moment this is all that I can rhyme about
Thinking about all of the things I did wrong, the shit I said and how
I lost you 'cause I never found a fucking way to say out loud
All the things that I felt when I was with you
How I would ignore all of your questions and just playfully diss you
How I never had the balls to even tell you I miss you
And now the only thing I wanna do is tell you that I wish you all the best
Whether it's with or without me
I wish I'd been good enough, but I'm not and I'm sorry
Now I'm the reason I'm hurt, I'm the reason I've got these thoughts that keep me up at night, these fuckin memories that haunt me

I'm afraid to fuckin write and record this
I could barely say it to you, how the hell can I peform it?
And expect people to think anything but "what the fuck?"
Went from writing about Pokemon to writing about the fuckup that I am
About my breakup and my stupid mistakes
About my feelings and my stupid heartbreaks
But I'm not fuckin happy, and I just need to get it out
Instead of spending another day in the dark and on the couch
I'll admit that it scares me thinkin you found another dude
Scares me thinkin I might have to spend my days and not have one with you
It scares me so much, that all I really wanna do is end it all, just fuckin' do it, go out and buy a gun and shoot
'Cause I fucked it all up, and now I've finally got a clue
Hope you know that I meant it when I said I'm in love with you
And you're the only one, and I wish that I coulda said this before it was too late
Because I sure fucking regret it