Episode II: Zenkai

by Joey Z.

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EPISODE 2 OF THE TRILOGY. ZENKAI. THIS IS MY REALLY SAD ALBUM ABOUT GETTING MY HEART DESTROYED AND BEING AN IDIOT IT'S THE MOST PERSONAL THING I'VE EVER MADE ALL THE BEATS ARE MADE BY GREAT PEOPLE AND THEY ARE DOPE AND I AM VERY PROUD OF THIS EPISODE. ONCE AGAIN RECORDED BY TJ FERNANDEZ, WHO ALSO MIXED AND MADE ME SOUND INCREDIBLE SO SHOUTS OUT TO THAT GUY. HE DOIN THE LAST EPISODE TOO. IT'S GONNA BE WILD. MARCH 7TH BTW. SHOUTS OUT TO TRENDSETTA JONEZ FOR TALKING SHIT FOR LIKE 8 MINUTES ON MY ALBUM WE MADE IT FAMILY. SHOUTS OUT TO LIVFREE FOR STILL RAPPING WITH ME. SHOUTS OUT TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS FOR PUTTING UP WITH ME.

THANK YOU FOR LISTENING. AND I MEAN THAT MORE THAN I EVER HAVE BEFORE

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released February 14, 2015

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Track Name: 10:16AM
I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU WAY TOO MUCH
I GOT PROBLEMS OPENIN UP
UNLESS I MAKE IT RHYME WHILE SMOKIN ON THE POTENT TO FOCUS AND HONE MY TOTAL LACK OF MOTIVE INTO SOMETHING THAT SUCKS
WORD UP
22 WITH SO MUCH FUCKIN WISDOM
BUT TOO STUPID TO USE IT SO THIS IS SOMETHIN DIFFERENT
THIS IS SOME THINGS THAT I BEEN THINKIN BOUT THE PLACE I BEEN IN
BITTERSWEET MOVE TO A GREAT HOUSE CAUSE YOU AIN'T IN IT
I GUESS I'M DUMB CAUSE I JUST THOUGHT THAT IT WAS MEANT TO BE
I NEVER THOUGHT THAT YOU WOULD SEE ME AS AN ENEMY
IT'S GOT ME FUCKED UP CAUSE I JUST WANT YOU TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME
AND WHEN YOU LEFT I GODDAMN NEARLY ENDED ME
LITERALLY
BUT WHATEVER
THERE I GO THINKING ABOUT YOU AGAIN
BUT I WON'T GIVE YOU THIS SONG, YOU GOT ENOUGH OF THE REST
SO THAT'S THE END OF THAT
LET'S RAP UP OTHER STUFF IN MY HEAD
PANIC ATTACKS, LACK OF SLEEP
10:16AM
ALL I DO THESE DAYS IS LAY IN THE BED
SINCE A YOUNGIN BEEN A CHARACTER
ALWAYS FAKED WHO I AM
IT'S JUST WALLS ON ALL SIDES TO HIDE ME
I'M BOXED IN
TRYNA BREAK OUT
MAKIN EFFORTS AT HONESTY
HERE'S WHO I AM
MY NAME'S JOEY, BORN JUNE 30TH, 92
WAS ONLY A COUPLE POUNDS AT BIRTH, YOU COULD SAY I KINDA GREW
I WAS THE SHIEST DUDE
CAREFUL AND QUIET TOO
AFRAID TO SPEAK OR SHOW EMOTION
QUICK TO LIE TO YOU
SEE I WAS RAISED UP IN THE HMD
WHERE YOU MIGHT GET YOUR BIKE TOOK BUT IT AIN'T THEM STREETS
WHERE THE ONLY CONVERSATIONS' BASED ON THE DAY THEY CAN LEAVE
IT'S DUMB BUT I KINDA LOVE IT
YOU CAN'T TAKE IT FROM ME
I USED TO TURN MY BACK ON FAMILY TRYNA GIVE ME HUGS
I NEVER UNDERSTOOD AFFECTION
WASN'T GIVEN NONE
WASN'T GIVIN NONE
WOULND'T GIVE IT UP
THAT TALL GIRL WHO LIKED HORSES TOUCHED ME
I COULDN'T GET IT UP
ON A FERRIS WHEEL, SUMMER OF SEVENTH GRADE
WHY'D I BRIND THAT UP?
I HOPE THESE THINGS ADD UP
BUT THINGS JUST HAPPEN, I GUESS
I ONLY GET MORE SCATTERBRAINED WHEN I'M STRESSED

NOW WATCH ME FADE AWAY
THIS USELESS STAIN OF WASTE WITH NO CHANCE TO CHANGE
EVERYTHING COMES IN SHADES OF GREY

FOR 8TH GRADE I HAD TO LEAVE MY SCHOOL
I RECENTLY BECAME AN ATHEIST
I DIDN'T CARE, BUT THEY DID
THE ONLY REASON I'M SAYIN IT
I NEVER FELT THE PRESENCE OF GOD
I WASN'T FOR PRAYIN
AND THE DAY THEY TOLD ME BEING GAY WAS A SIN I WASN'T OKAY WITH IT
SO I BOUNCED OUT
WENT TO A PUBLIC SCHOOL THEN I SUDDENLY FOUND OUT
EVERYBODY'S BUDDY BUDDY AS LONG AS IT BENEFITS THEM
BUT YOU CAN'T FIND EM THE TIMES YOU ACTUALLY DOWN & OUT
AROUND THAT TIME I STARTED WRITIN DOWN THE THINGS I FELT
HID THE PAGES IN A BOOK HIDDEN AMIDST MY SHELF
HIDDEN WRITTENS I WAS ASHAMED OF HIDDEN WITHIN MYSELF
CAUSE I'M TOO SCARED TO TELL MY FRIENDS I WANNA KILL MYSELF
POST-HIGH SCHOOL I FELL OFF THE GRID
I COULD PROBABLY COUNT MY FRIENDS OUT WITH THE BACK OF MY FIST
COUPLE YEARS I SAT BACK JUST STACKING MY CHIPS
JUST TO SPILL EM ALL
CAUSE I CAN'T HANDLE MY SHIT
BUT I HAD SOME GOOD TIMES IN BETWEEN, AND I MADE SOME ENEMIES
I WAS GOIN TO COLLEGE
PLAYIN CONVENTIONS
AND ACTIN LIKE SHIT'S MY DESTINY
I MET A GIRL WHO AMAZINGLY CARED LESS THAN ME
BUT I WAS TRYIN NOT TO MENTION IT
HERE'S THREE THINGS, YOU GET TO TAKE TWO
A GOOD TEAM
MONEY
AND A PARTNER THAT'S FAITHFUL
I STILL AIN'T REALLY TOLD YOU MUCH BOUT MYSELF
BUT WHEN I DIE I'M CAUSIN A RUCKUS IN HELL
UNTIL THE DEVIL'S SO FED UP HE SENDS ME SOMEWHERE ELSE
FUCK IT
THE DEVIL'S THE GOVERNMENT
DON'T LISTEN TO WHAT THEY TELL YOU
NEVER BELIEVE A WORD, IT'S ALL LIES
THAT'S MY POLICY
IT USED TO BE PESSIMISM BUT NOW IT'S JUST HONESTY
I ALREADY PROVED THAT I CAN RHYME, I DON'T WANNA RHYME NO MORE
ZENKAI'S MY DARE IZ A DARKSIDE COME FOLLOW ME HOME
THEY ALWAYS SAY THAT YOU'RE BETTER ONCE YOU'RE DEAD
SO I'LL PROBABLY BE AT MY BEST WHEN I'M GONE
Track Name: Whatever It Takes
WHATEVER IT TAKES
DICE GAME VENDETTAS, ASS BETTORS AND LAMES
JAY
TO THE Z, AIN'T HOV BUT I'M KNOWN FOR REPEATING MY NAME
PLEASE ALLOW ME TO SAY IT AGAIN
(JOEY Z!!!)
GODDAMNIT, RAP'S STUPID, DON'T DO IT
STAND MOTIONLESS, NO MOVEMENT
THROW UP AND THAT'S DOPE MUSIC
JUST SMOKE CAUSE IT'S ALL RUINED
OR CHOKE ON YOUR OWN FLUIDS
I'M GOIN DOWN I INTEND ON DOIN IT HENDRIXLY
HORRENDOUSLY, WITH MONIKA DANNEMANN LAYIN NEXT TO ME
1970, IN KENSINGTON, REMEMBER ME
BASEDGOD, BASEDGOD'S A VERY CLOSE FRIEND TO ME
LIL B THE WEED MAN CALL HIM FOR THE REMEDY
ADDERALL AMPHETAMINES BRINGING OUT THE BEST OF ME
GIRL I'M FEELIN WILD TONIGHT, COME AND BE DEPRESSED WITH ME
I DON'T GET HIGH, I JUST LEVEL OUT
MY NORM RESIDES AROUND AS HIGH AS WHISTLES OUT THE KETTLE SPOUT
CALL YOUR BEST UP, SEND EM OUT
I'M TRYNA TEST MY STRENGTH ON LIVE BAIT, DOG, PROTECT YOUR MOUTH
BEST BLOCK YOUR CHOMPERS FORE I KNOCK EM OUT
BOPPED IN YOUR BABBLEBOX FOR WHAT THE FUCK YOU TALKIN BOUT
DAMN
I'M LIVIN BY THE STRENGTH OFF THE ZENKAI
CAUSE IF I WAS GONNA FUCKIN DIE I WOULDA BEEN DIED
I ALWAYS SAID IF YOU DON'T HAVE REGRETS YOU AREN'T DOIN ENOUGH
BUT WHAT ABOUT WHEN YOU DID TOO MUCH AND YOU FUCKED IT ALL UP?
NOW I'M STANDIN AND SHAKIN WITH MY FISTS BALLED UP
DOIN MY BEST IMPRESSION OF CHILL WHILE TRYNA FORGET Y'ALL SUCK
UGH
MY LIFE'S DUMB, I LOST THE LOVE OF IT
NOW I'M ALL FUCKED UP AND WONDERING IF I CAN EVER LOVE OR TRUST AGAIN
FUCK THIS SHIT, I DON'T WANNA RAP, I WANNA CUT MY WRISTS
BUT BACK WHEN I WAS YOUNG I STOPPED & PROMISED NOT TO PICK IT UP AGAIN
AND I DON'T BREAK MY FUCKIN PROMISES
I TRY TO STAY POSITIVE


WHATEVER IT TAKES
EVEN IF I REGRET IT TIL THE END OF MY DAYS
YOU'D THINK I'D HAVE MADE SOME PROGRESS ALL THIS TIME I'VE SPENT AWAKE
BUT INSTEAD I WROTE SONGS TO DELETE EM THE NEXT DAY
CAUSE SHIT GOT ME IN A MOOD WHERE EVERY MOVE'S A MISTAKE
BUT LIFE'S A CHESS GAME YOU DIDN'T CHOOSE TO PLAY AND IT'S FATE
A PAWN ON THE FRONTLINE, MY KNIGHTS THE ONLY L'S THAT I TAKE
MOVES THAT I MAKE WITH ROOKS HAVE GOT YOU SHOOK FROM THE GATE
BUT WE AIN'T PLAYIN, I'M TALKIN METAPHORS, LIKE LIFE IS THE SAME
AND I'MA TAKE MY CHECK MATE NO MATTER THE MOVES THAT IT TAKES
I'M HOPIN TO AT LEAST BE FIRST PERSON TO COME IN SECOND PLACE
THEN GET DRUNK TO CELEBRATE THE DUB, RALPH AND WRECK THE PLACE
CAUSE THAT'S THE BEST WAY TO END THE GAME
SET THE SQUARES ABLAZE UNTIL IT MAKES THE PIECES SEEM LIKE THEY'RE ALL SET IN PLACE
& THAT'S A DOUBLE ENTENDRE, BUT I DON'T GIVE A SHIT
I ONLY POINT IT OUT CAUSE THAT'S HOW HOV TAUGHT ME TO DEAL WITH IT
AWWWWW SHIT, I'M FEELIN IT
GOT EM ON THE HOOKS LINES & SINGIN TIME TO REEL EM IN
I'M ACTIN LIKE I'M IN CONTROL JUST CAUSE I'M AT THE STEERING WHEEL
DOIN A BUCK 40 HYDROPLANIN, MAINTAININ, TRYNA HEAL MY SHIT
BUT FUCK IT THO, IT ALL FEELS LIMITED
IGNORING ALL THE VOICES YELLIN "KILL YOURSELF YOU IDIOT
YOU'LL FUCK IT UP, YOU FUCKED IT UP, IT'S FUCKED UP, THIS IS IT
GIVE UP ON YOUR MISSIONS, FUCKING DO IT, PUSSY, FINISH IT"
JUST BREATHE, I AIN'T HEARIN IT
I'M DANCIN WITH MY DEMONS & DEATH & MY LACK OF FEAR OF IT
52 CARDS, BARS, CARS, BROADS, DEAL WITH IT
SHUFFLE UP THE DECK FLASH CARD FREESTYLE WHILE HE STEERS THE WHIP
WITH A WEIRDO CHICK, ON SOME WEIRDO SHIT, EVER SINCE THE DOCTOR SAID "PUSH" BEEN THAT WEIRDO KID
WORD TO RED MAN
ROLLIN LIKE WHEN UNDERTAKER INCORPORATED THE DEAD MAN

WHATEVER IT TAKES
I'LL BREAK THE RECORD TRYNA SET MY SHIT STRAIGHT
SO NOW IT'S SKIPPIN FUCK IT DETOTONATE
I'M TRYNA BLOW SOME FUCKIN BRAINS, NAMELY MINE, ALL OVER THE PLACE
Y'ALL KNOW IT'S THE J O E Y
Z, NO HYPHEN
PEOPLE ARE FUCKIN DUMB I GOTTA SPELL OUT HOW TO WRITE IT
BUT I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HOW MY NAME IS WRITTEN
Y'ALL CAN CALL ME YOUR HIGHNESS


WHATEVER IT TAKES TO END THIS
SHOUTS OUT TO THANOS RAGE SHOUTS OUT TO KENDRICK
FOUND OUT THAT BETTER DAYS ARE ALL ABOUT PERSPECTIVE
THE GENESIS OF A NEMESIS CHEST-DEEP IN DEPRESSION
FUCK IT I'M GONNA DIE
I JUST WANNA BE HOV BUT HOV STILL ALIVE SO